No, I'm not dead...

... i've just been MIA for the last few weeks, sorry if you all thought I had fallen off the face of the earth. If you tried to make off with any of my CDs or stuff, please return it before I discover it stolen.

Anways....

The practice club in didsbury went great, we got to lead 2 kids to Jesus, which was awesome! We got adjusted to big clubs...

Tofield: First, we got to help save one more girl, which was cool! Also, our billets kids and us (me and Lizzy, my partner) were on a zip line, and one of the kids (they're twins) decided that he was goign to let one of the thinner trees lower him to the ground. Needless to say, that didn't work, and resulted in him breaking the tree and his ankle, putting him out of commision for the entire summer. And this is a fairly active kid, so..... aside from the fact that he got really bossy, he's fine... his sister might not be by the time the cast comes off... lol!

Smith: this was our first small club, i think at most we had 14 kids, as opposed to 35. But it was still fun.... the freakiest things occured! this one girl in Tofield, Torey, looks like Lacey, the Brittany in Smith looks like the Brittany in Three hills, and her older cousin Alexx sounds like the other Brittany's brother Jesse! So freaky....

So tomorrow (today?) I get to go home! The only downer is the 6 hours in the car with Cody and Shawn... pray for me!!!!!!!

Off again...

So I'm off for Week 2 of summer missions training with CEF in Didsbury, then I'm gone to Barrhead, Nampa, Falun, and Spruce Grove, respectivley, for four more weeks. Week One went all right, there are only about 8 other summer missionaries/interns this summer, so we'll be busy. My partner for the summer, Lizzy, and I are probably going to get along while we're travelling, so that will be good. Adam, my friend from church (?) is only doind a VBS in Linden, so I might try to get Spruce Grove off and come help him out.

I only have time for this one little post, Didsbury is a whiles away, and there's construction on the road to, so that'll be intresting... anyways, I got to go. Wow, it feels like I'm leaving home or something... I'm going to be kinda homesick, if you guys could pray for me... Pray for the kids to! Cia!

Hmmm....

Alright, I admit it, I have been bitten by the Facebook bug, and on my profile there, I added this neat little thing called an Honesty Box, where people tell you their opinions of you anonymously. I thought this would be a handy little gadget hanging around, so I decided to add this. Look what this chick wrote about my religious status (which, by the way, is "Jesus Freak -kinda like a Christian, minus the rules"):

"You make christians sound like a bad thing, rules? and you seem guilty to be called one."

The way I see it, your average churchy Christian is a rules and religion freak, who holds to "Jesus plus equals the Gospel." I am of the mindset that "Jesus, plus, does not equal the Gospel." I don't like the stand that the church takes on rules and religion, I try to concentrate more on the relationship part of the deal. Also, I am NOT ashamed of Jesus, nor am I guilty of being called one of His followers. And I don't make it my primary goal in life to make the church look bad either, I am just saying that I don't beleive in their religion, I beleive in a relationship.

Comments?

OK, its been a while in Bloggerland...

..since my last post, and I still have almost nothing to say! weird... Randi, I hear ya!

Lets see.... First and foremost, I got slammed with a round of @!!!&%@& bronchitis, due to the fact that we have mold growing in what's left of the house, my dad got double pnemonia, my brots are both coming down with bronchitis (we think), the only one who isn't sick is Mom, who's only home half the time! Sheesh! We first thought my throat issues were from screaming all weekend at YC (which was awesome, TobyMac and Skillet are awesome! And I got autographed and high-fived by Hawk Nelson! Yay!), but when I started coughing up... stuff... (blech) we went to the doctor and found out I have bronchitis. And then I started coughing up blood with the, ahem, stuff..... blech. Anyways.....


As I mentioned, YC was AWESOME!!!!!!!!! The only person I wanted to find, but missed, was Melissa, my cousin, dang. However, I ran into about 15+ people from school, so that was good. Wish Heidi and Jared could have gone, but oh well, what can you do, esp. when Heidi broke her foot a week earlier? (don't worry, she's all right now)

9 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN 2 DAYS OF EXAMS!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!! Bethany and Saralyn and I are planning a movie night, should be fun. I have earned the title of "sheltered" after I mentioned that I have never seen Matrix, Final Fantasy, or Phantom of the Opera. Poor me... meh.

Joined Facebook.... wish Dave would put me on his friends list... argh. oh well.

And... what else....?

Oh yeah, while Spoke and Paula were away, our church redid their house, it looks really cool now. Evidently Paula was crying when she saw the mudroom.... :D And our church has been feeding us since we've all been sick.... Leona, loved the farmer's sausage last night! I love my church!!!!!

And since I can't think of anything else....

SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'M HYPER!!!!!!!!!!)

How do you cope with this?

Not sure how long this has been going for, but I'll try to make sense...

Lately, I've been feeling like I'm nobody's favorite, or that I'm not the best in anything, and it's been driving me... not nuts, but to the point of depression I guess. I feel like my friends play favorites between me and their other friends, I'm never good enough to make honour role, I've never earned a gold in any karate competition (or any sports event, not counting my grade 3 soccer team, but that doesn't count).

Like today during chapel, Jewel and Jen were sitting next to me, and Jewel had Skittle's that she was sharing with Jen, but when I aksed for some, she was just like, "Well, I promised Jen she could have some", and wouldn't share with me, which got me fairly moody and somewhat antisocial that afternoon.
Then at youth group tonight, I kept feeling like I didn't fit in with any of the kids, seeing as the Lindenites all hang out together and I can't seem to get attention from the PCA/Townie/homeschoolers from 3 Hills. I mean, Heidi and Josiah did some shoulder tag and free spar with me, and Gynelle and Devon and I were giving each other tattoos (with Sharpies), but I feel like I don't have any really close friends anywhere in that group. I wonder if I should quit going...

And at school, Bethany, in Grade 11, kind of understands, and is sympathetic, but when I sit with her and Saralyn at lunch in the hallways, all the popular people come up and hang out with Bethany, and for the most part ignore me. James and Stephen sometimes talk to me, sometimes John, but that's about it. Days like this make me wish I didn't have to go to school... Jared and Josiah are probably my two best Grade 10 friends, and the only thing that we really have in common is guitar and an expressed intrest in the same band that we all want to play in. (actually, they started it...)

At church, the Bridge's and Warkentin's hang out with me, and I have some adult friends, but it's not the same, esp. seeing as my best friends are all Acme/Didsbury homeschoolers. Tom and Dave, they pay some attention to me, but I can tell I'm not a favorite of anybody at school, or church, and seeing as I don't think my brother's like me... I feel like I'm alone, without a real friend anywhere. I'm nobody's favorite, and I'm always second best or worse, never the best in anything. Why can't someone pick me to be their favorite, for just once? I know God loves me, but he can't choose favorites between his children, so that doesn't help me any.

As I type this, I can barely see the keyboard, this is the first real crying I've done, since I don't dare show weakness in public. I don't know why, I just feel like I need to be tough to fit in. It obviously ain't working.

Pray for me, please.

Feel like one of the elite now...

Still have had no time recently to post on here, check my email, or even play my guitar, so I'll just make this quick...

Now have zero walls or floor, have a curtain seperating my room from my bro's, have a mouse problem, and can get from my room, through my bros' room, and into the office without going through a door, very cool! However, can't wait for my walls to come back up so I can change in some privacy... !!!

Getting back to the "elite" topic, I graded for my first degree purple belt on Tuesday, which was very successful (and painful), now feel very elite now! James thinks it should only take me a year and a half before I get my black very happy!! Now, to convince my dad to let me do karate over the summer and take the July grading...

Injuries for the month:
1) Shin splints on Wednesday that got me out of P.E.
2) High heels on gravel. No prizes for guessing what happened.
3) Accidently catching my fingers in a locker on Friday.

Good grief, that's the last month, all rolled into 3 consecutive days!

Hey other bloggers who read this, anyone get an email from a Debra Pasquella? If you did, do NOT, for any reason, go onto her blog, it is a virus!! Anyone know who the heck she is?.....

And got to get ready for school tomorrow...

Pity Me

Since I'm tired, I'll just go straight to the chase here...

Alright, so BC was fun, but we got home at 12 midnight on Friday the 13th, to find that our toilet had blown (thankfully just the 'in' tube, not the 'out'!) and flooded our trailer from the front entryway in the middle, ALL the way down to my room on the end. Nasty. So the next day we had the disaster crew in to start the rip-up-all-wet-carpet drill, and I got kicked out of my room for a couple of nights.

Then on Monday, they started ripping out walls, kicking us out entirely to the new Best Western in town, 5 minute walk from school. So todays Thursday, and we finally moved back in today, but still are trying to keep everything off the floor. Most of my and my bros' worldly possessions are in boxes in the kitchen, and we are all tired and stressed, and with the new round of snow that we are having... @&%&@*#&^!!!!! Help!!! Prayer would be greatly appreciated by all right now!

now I'm tired, and I gotta give the computer to Nathan, and go eat dinner before I go to youth tonight... *groan*