Really want to have a good cry now!

As the title says, I had a really crappy day today, need a cry, bear with me here.

As most of you know, I auditioned for His Singers (the high school choir) last week. I've been wanting to get in for 2 years, everyone says I'm a good singer, I think I have a darn good chance of getting in.

The first thing I do when I get back from the O with Nina is check out the list of who made it into His Singers.
I wasn't on the list.

Nina had to push me upstairs and try to keep me focused on anything but the list. I owe her big time for trying, but it didn't help matters much when I saw everyone looking to see who made it in or not. Jenny got in, I know I should be happy that at least one of my friends made it in, but I nearly cried.

A big thing that surprised me was the fact that Tom auditioned, but didn't get in, which is weird, since they never have enough guys, thought they'd be desperate. (No offense meant Tom!)

I discovered that James is actually a pretty decent guy, for being a jerk in karate, cuz I was talking to Haley about the His Singers, mentioning that I wanted to cry, and after the initial "It's only His Singers" from him, and me nearly blowing up at him for that, he was actually sympathectic, which is surprising, judging from the annoyance level yesterday at karate.

Anyways, I think I did really badly on my French test this afternoon, I was thinking about not making it into His Singers. Alena gave me sympathy today during drama class, I just feel like such a wreck, and incredibly self-centred, thinking about myself all afternoon. My apologies to all my friends who understood, esp. Jenny, I luv you guys!!!

Now I don't have to choose between H.S. and guitar lessons this year, there's always next year... but why didn't I make it in this year?! Why?!?! (sorry, feeling sorry for myself again)

I'll shut up now, and give the rest of you a break from my pity party.